Mom

 Before I begin with my story, 

here`s a poem about Mother`s love.

Without You

Mom, without you, there would be no me.

Your love, your attention, your guidance,

have made me who I am.
Without you, I would be lost,
wandering aimlessly,
without direction or purpose.
You showed me the way
to serve, to accomplish, to persevere.
Without you, there would be an empty space
I could never fill, no matter how I tried.
Instead, because of you,
I have joy, contentment, satisfaction and peace.
Thank you, mom.
I have always loved you
and I always will.   Mom was a very beautiful woman and a loving person.Mom was a very good mother you could ever imagine.So many great memories I had with Mom.I never imagine the day She was taken away from me would come and haunt me.Setiap yang hidup akan kembali menemui Allah.Mom said, "In life,we gotta believe in Faith." 

I miss her everyday, every minute and every second of my life.

No one can replace her. 
She always wanted to play piano and it was her dream actually.

The saddest part is she didnt get the chance to see me play.=(

She was my teacher, adviser and greatest inspiration.

She was the one who thinks that school is sucks..haha

So masa kecik2 ponteng sekolah was my thing..LOL

Thats why la I dont have friends sebab selalu sangat  ponteng sekolah

so no one wants to be my friend.huhuhuh..=(((

 So Mom was my best friend.

 One of the most difficult things about losing Mom is

that it seems nobody has the right thing to say.

Knowing that she is gone is still unimaginable.

It took me a long time to accept that she`s not coming back.

Its not easy to ease the pain.

Its not easy to wake up in the morning and realized that she`s not

gonna be there beside me and say the things I wanna hear 

whenever I feel sad or angry or lonely.

No its not easy.

But life must go on.

Sampai bila nak mengenang nasib kan?!

Terima segalanya dan redha dengan segala ketentuan Allah.

I still have my Dad and Siblings to comfort me.

Am grateful for that..

We named our new house  Casamadre, 

(meaning Rumah Ibu/Mother`s house)

so that she`ll always be remembered.

Spend 17 years together with Mom.

Full of great memories.

Love You Mom,

Now & Forever....

In loving memory of Mom

2/11/1951 - 28/4/2007

"A mother holds her children's hands for a while...their hearts forever."

  

Paramore

Jeremy,  Josh, Zac, Taylor & Hayley

Brothers Josh & Zac Farro have departed the band... OMG. =(((

This is so sad. I cant believe this is happening. Gosh!

Don`t worry Paramore you`ll always be in my heart. *crying* 

I hope Hayley Williams, Taylor & Jeremy will stick together no matter what..

To Josh & Zac Farro, I`m gonna miss you guys...=((

ANNOUNCEMENT (Paramore Blog)

Posted by Paramore

December 18, 2010

Over the past 6 years, our band has been through some of the most intense and incredible experiences of our lives. None of these things have been without trial. We've worked so hard to get to where we are and the fact that you are all still here with us says something about you that we will never be able to truly understand. You have stuck with us through thick and thin and we are so grateful. A couple of months ago, Josh and Zac let us know they would be leaving the band after our show in Orlando last Sunday. None of us were really shocked. For the last year it hasn't seemed as if they wanted to be around anymore. We want Josh and Zac to do something that makes them happy and if that isn't here with us, then we support them finding happiness elsewhere. But we never for a second thought about leaving any of this behind. We really hope that you can be encouraged by the fact that the three of us who are still here are ready to take on another chapter of our journey together. You have always been what keeps us going so why would we stop now? We want to stick by you. Knowing that we have a unified passion and a clear vision makes us feel stronger than ever.

The "blog" that was posted regarding everything that is going on with our band was a fake. We aren't sure who did it or why... And we aren't sure how they timed it this way. This is the first time that we have spoken out about what's going on and we wouldn't have released an official statement that important through a personal blog. So, we're sorry for any confusion and just to remain clear, this is the first time we have spoken out about this.

We have some amazing things lined up for next year starting with our tour in South America. We are still coming to you and we are excited about who we are bringing with us! The tour is still on and we can't wait to see you all.

As we look back, and now as we look with excitement to the future, in all of this what truly matters are the good times. The pictures of us with our arms around each other, the long van rides, your faces while you sing along as we play. Thank you for getting us right here to this very moment. We look forward to our best times. And we hope you will go there with us.

Love,
Hayley, Jeremy & Taylor

Paramore

Stick together guys and make more music for your fans!

 Memorable Concert by Paramore. 
 

 Was there with my brothers

 Paramore Rocks!!!!!

 Hayley (camera phone sucks ishhhhhh)

"Sing us a song, and we'll sing it back to you!"

 PARAMORE FOREVER!

Dee`s 21st Birthday

"Finally 21 and ready for some fun."

Happy Birthday to you Dee my angel. We`ve been friends  since primary school and I just wanna say that I cherish every moment we had as BFF. You`re  always there for me when I need my BFF.=)

I L.O.V.E YOU!!!! hug2!!hehehehhe

Movie Tix

Celebrate Dee`s birthday at GSC summit today and watch this hilarious movie. 

Hantu Kak Limah Balik Rumah.  LOL

Omigoddd We were laughing the whole time.. 

We plan for a picnic but due to bad weather we change our plan..grrrrr..nak picnic..=(((

Since we love to watch movies together so Hantu Kak Limah is a good idea..LOL.. 

At first macam malu2 nak tengok this movie but since I`m a big fan of Awie (dia cute), hahaha

the hell laaa nak malu2 kan!!huhhuuhu.. Kena la Support Industri Filem Malaysia..cewahhh..

Kudos Hantu Kak Limah.....=))))

 As For Presents,

I gave Dee a Pink Baju Kurung Moden for her birthday this year so that she can wear it

on GK`s wedding reception next month.=)))) 

Thank God she likes it...hehehe

I feel bad coz I promise to buy a new Purse (Charles & Keith) for her but I didnt..=(((..Sorry Dee!! 

(note to self: start a piggy bank to buy presents) hehehehe

21
 Grow Up & Act Like A Woman! 

Aint "teenagers" anymore okayyy. 

I hope our Friendship will last forever Dee!
 
Happy Birthday...

"Friends are the most important part of your life. Treasure the tears, treasure the laughter, but most importantly, treasure the memories."

Job Hunting

"A lot of people quit looking for work as soon as they find a job."

Perkara yang paling sukar dalam kehidupan ini  ialah mencari kerja..kan?kan?Grrrrrrrrr

It aint easy aitee!! Hantar resume pastu dapat call from the company pastu pegilah interview pastu

cakap cakap dan cakap  dgn interviewer pastu tanya dan tanya dan tanya dan gelak ketawa pastu selesailah interview tersebut lalu mereka berkata "we will get back to you soon" lalu kita pun tunggu tunggu tunggu dan tunggu untuk panggilan tersebut tapi TAK ADA...ehhhh S@#TTTTTT....

 Words cant describe the feeling...

Saturday 18/12/2010 Job Hunting with Dee..It was fun but kami dilanda dengan dugaan yg kelakar iaitu apabila tiba sahaja di OWH kami dipaksa untuk lalu di LOADING BAY instead of the entrance..

Perasaan ketika itu: "Dee I rasa mcm nak menjerit laaa"..Dee berkata "Jom Blah" 

Afterwords we went straight to Menara Summit. Mission: Kelly Services.. 

Semasa sampai sahaja di Parking Lot nampak lagi LOADING BAY..ehhh puaka betul laa...haha

Dugaan kedua menimpa kami iaitu KS tutup kerana today kan Saturday..Haihhhhhhhh

Mission: Not accomplished...Dear GOD,is this some kind of punishment??haishhhhhhhhhh 

Oleh kerana terlalu kesal terhadap dugaan2 yang melanda we decided to have lunch at our fav place mana lagi McD laaaa...=))))))

cakap cakap cakap cakap dan cakap!! Beli porridge for Bee coz he`s sick today..=(((

Begitulah Kisah JOB HUNTING kami...

To Be Honest, I effing Hate Job Hunting!!!!!grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

THE END..

  

Loneliness

It is an unpleasant feeling in which people experience a strong sense of emptiness. 

One might feel lonely even in the company of others, for example the loss of a significant person in one`s life. Learning to cope with changes in life is essential in overcoming loneliness. 

Everyone experiences loneliness. 

Loneliness comes with life.
 

"The most terrible poverty is loneliness and the feeling of being unloved."

Its In The Blood

I asked for a car

P

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D

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wait for it....

wait for it....

 its coming...

drum roll...

 tadaaaaaaaaa..

 ViVa.........My dream Car okayyyy

but I got this for my 20th birhday

taddaaaaaaaaa

Piano!!!! *hooray*

Thanx GK you`re the best. Been taking Piano Lessons for a year now...Perghhhh

 It aint easy okayyy... I got a Distinction for my grade 2 exam...*yeay me*..

Papa was a "musician" back in the 70`s so music is kinda our thing laaahh.  

Lucifer can play Piano too so we`re competing with each other...LOL 

But sadly he can`t read the notes...*booyaaaaaa*   

My Grandma played Piano her entire life, when she passed away Pappy gave me this :

Piano Books

Thanx Pappy.  

 Love My Life!=))))


"Play the music, not the instrument"

mi colección

 High School Musical

 Hannah Montana

                       Paramore                               

This is what I do at home! Collecting stuff..Juzz a hobby..hehehe..There goes my 

allowance..grrrrrrr. But its worth it. HSM and HM, kiddy right??! I know...LOL.. who cares... Paramore, erghhhhh my fav band. Hayley Williams is the cutest lead singer ever..

 Hayley Williams    

                 The reason why I love to do this coz I spend most of the time at home, biasalah JOBLESS..hehehe. This is what happen when you watch TV too much. But other than that I love to ermm kinda like "collect" clothes,shoes and handbags...*who doesn`t* It`s a must for women to spend their money on Fashion, we can call it a hobby too, am I right??!  Actually I don`t go out that much. Spend a lot of my time practicing (Piano), Googling, reading n blablablabla....... Since I`m the youngest, my family is a bit "paranoid" when it comes to safety.. I`m not aloud to go out at night, although I have driving license but whenever I wanna hang out with my friends I gotta make sure that I`ll be home before 10pm...geeeez macam Cinderella pulak...heheehehe.. So instead of showing tantrums I "balas dendam" buying all this stuff to pleased myself...harharharharhar. ohhh collecting Teddy Bears is a passion of mine too..LOL


"Life's a hobby"

                                                      


   

Miles To Go

                        "Life is all about having a good time"

     Miley Cyrus a.k.a Hannah Montana is a singer-songwriter and Disney`s sweetheart. Her parents gave her the nickname "smiley" which was later shortened to "miley". I know I`m too old for all of this but I love to watch HM on Disney channel. I love everything about her character as HM. I love her music, appearance and semua lah! HM the movie, arghhhh the best movie everrrrrr. I even bought a Tshirt to show people that I`m HM biggest fan... :-)

    Miles To Go is an autobiography by Miley Cyrus. In her book she discuss about relationship with her parents, her thought on the media, her love life and her future..Love the book. Yes I bought the book for 100myr at Kinokuniya...geeeeeezzz what a fan huhhh?!! She tells tales of her life before "FAME".

       MC`s quotes in her book " There are multiple sides to all of us. Who we are and who we might be if we follow our dreams". Would be nice to put myself on her shoes for one day..*dream on laaaa*.  I can`t imagine having lunch with family and suddenly the Paparazzi started SNAP...SNAP..no thanx I prefer the private life. I don`t know how MC can handle that kind of life. Its like the whole world can see what you`re doing, what you`re eating and semua lahhh...Gosh that`s tough..Being famous is not always "butterflies n flowers".Gotta learn to appreciate life huhh?!!!...

    MC wrote this in her book:

DREAM

Follow your dreams
Follow your heart 
Show everyone in a gloomy sky
You can be a shining star
Don`t lose your faith
`cause there might come a day
When everything could disappear 
but your dreams will still be here.


Miley Cyrus is Living The Dream.....

eonni

Eonni means sister (kakak) in Korean....*I`m addicted to Korean Drama hehehe*

Today I wanna talk about my sister...*yawn*....Although she`s 15 years older than me but she acts like we`re the same age..Grow up will yaaa?!!!!..heeeee...

  

Since Mama passed away eonni is kinda like our "Guardian Angel"..We`ve been living together for 11 years now..OMG lama glerrrr...Ever since I was born Mama is my best friend, so I don`t really "connect" with eonni coz at that time she was busy with school and I was busy spending quality time with Mama, main masak2,main basikal kecik dalam rumah,main bola dalam rumah with my two older brothers lepas tu pasu Mama pecah and then kena marah..haha...What a great childhood...hehehehe

But we do have great moments with eonni masa dia bawak we all pergi Sunway Lagoon, at that time Sunway baru bukak so we was like "waaaaaa"..."fuyoooo"...haha...Tapi still i wasn`t "connect" lagi coz masa tu I "kiddy" lagi and eonni was in her 20`s..Only now we "connect" with each other coz Mama dah takde so eonni kinda like my soulmate laaa sekarang ni..hehehe...To be honest kalau eonni takde kat rumah we all memang akan "lost" sebab she`s our Chef so when she`s not around we are in big trouble..haha..I Gotta learn how to cook laaahhh...aiyaaaa....

I`m glad to have her in my life..She`s my partner in crime,my teacher, my mirror and my HEART!.

SarangHeyo Eonni...!!!(I love you kakak) ..I want her to be my Wedding Planner one day..lalalalal.

When it comes to Fashion eonni is a FREAK..hehe..I do not have to worry about what I`m gonna wear  whenever I have a special occasion to attend or a job interview coz she`ll be like this .."ohh u gotta wear this coz it makes ur eyes pop, wear this colour coz u look more radiant, dun wear this coz it doesn`t suits ur skin colour laa...wateverrrr lahhh" ...thats eonni...

                                                       Eonni being bossy...haha

                                                                      

Would our childhood be any fun without sisters?? I don`t think so.....Love your sister and cherish every moment you have with a person you called  EONNI......

"You can kid the world.  But not your sister."

to boayo...(bye in korean)...*wink*

Mandi Hujan

Bersenam di petang sabtu is so much fun especially when you`re spending "quality time" with family.

Playing Basketball,Badminton,cycling,jogging.....waaaaaaaa barulah healthy kan?!!! Sadly the badminton court in setia damai ni amatlah "breezy" so macam mana nak main kan..So we dedided to main badminton dalam dewan Shades Of Green of Setia Damai...cool jugak coz dah lama tak main dalam indoor court. I just love the basketball court here coz it reminds me of SMK USJ12..high school memories there was nothing but "Butterflies n Flowers"..No no..not Lovey dovey memories ..kenangan yang terindah bersama kawan2 tercinta sahaja...hehehehe...

So Lepas habis jer main badminton dalam dewan suddenly its raining outside so we decided NOT  to wait for hujan berhenti coz its been a while since we mandi hujan macam masa zaman kanak2 dulu.. Syok gler coz Posh and me were running like hell sampai terlupa nak tunggu JJ(posh`s hubby)...hehehe...GK dah pecut with my bicycle but  still basah kuyup sebab tak larat nak kayuh,torso badan terlalu "comel"..waahhahahahaha...Hope esok tak hujan boleh bersenam..lalalalalala

And now rasa macam nak demam laaaa...o`ohhhhh.......

Well Thats all for now....

"The only exercise some people get is jumping to conclusions, running down their friends, side-stepping responsibility, and pushing their luck!"

Stay Healthy!!!=))))

AmiGoS

"A friend is the one who comes in when the whole world has gone out. "

I totally adore my BFF`s..To be honest I don`t have that many "amigos" pun sebab no one can understand me except  Dee n Bee..(bukan nama sebenar)..*wink*..Love you guys 4eva aiteee..

Without friends life would be empty,sad and boring..Speaking of amigos i wanna thank "BABE" for that job interview. Dapat or tak ermmm dunno so wait n see lahh...pray..pray..pray..

I am so pissed off juz now when Lucifer(my brother)  said   " u know y u dun have frenzzzz coz u are a FREAK"..eeehhh WTF(Cursing is a vulgar way to express your feelings and emotions)...I hate u man...Saya Emosi!!!!!!!!wateverrrrrrrrrr

Back to Amigos (Lucifer Who???)  today Bee is bloody happy sebab berjaya jumpa salon yang boleh buat rambut cornrow (a traditional West African style of hair grooming where the hair is braided very close to the scalp) macam tocang2 tu.Bagus kawanku..Speaking of witch I`m very upset with one of the salon kat summit subang ada ke patut Bee dah buat appointment with one of the stylist pastu last minute dia cancel ehh WTF.. "orang bukak salon dia pun nak"..Apa2 pun  he`s happy with that "tocang" hair...haha...Dee my angel is busy working not like me Lepak jerrr...On weekends we have our "GossipGirl Session"hehe..bukan la gossip juzz talk about life n blabla...We love shopping together and she`s the best shopping partner ever..The curve,Empire and Subang Parade tempat kegemaran...ngeeeeeeee..Lunch,Dessert,GGsession at MCDONALD`s memang terbaik..heehehe..Tapi bila "saham" jatuh mendadak "MAMAK" memang terbaik!!lalalalala

Ohhhhmigoddd its past my bedtime la...wow...Totally not a morning person.. To me waking up early should be illegal..LOL..tapi kalau dapat kerja can`t complaint laa... Kerja+Bangun Pagi=Money...Money+Kerja=Shopping...lalalalala.. iPhone oh iPhone oh LG cookie ohhh Blackberry it sounds delicious right??!!hmmmm......

Toodles

Newbie

"Everybody wanna be a Photographer n a Blogger"..so am I!!!hehehehehehehe
Kinda fun actually writing a Blog coz i can express my feelings and bla bla bla...My family thinks I`m a huge spoilt brat...like i give a S@#T....haha...3 things i can`t live without are Family,Friends and MUSIC(my big black piano)hehehe!!!

When i was in high school I never give a S@#T about education coz too busy listening to music n watching tv like all the time...YES I`m a spolit brat...*wink*.. I started taking piano lessons at the age of 19 now i`m 2_...cannot say...Never had a job...lepak jerrrr..I decided to have my own blog since I realised that I`ve been wasting my precious time doing NOTHING..."Doing nothing when you know you should be doing something important"...

I got a job interview today,thanx to my good friend ermm lets call her "BABE"(bukan nama sebenar)..Jangan xdapat je sudah...Hmmmmm....I gotta pay my piano exam fee 300myr so kalau dapat kerja xpayah la minta "sponsor"...haha..I love being the youngest in the family coz I always dapat "sponsor" if I wanna buy something or  whatever laaa...But after this no longer the "baby" coz my brother ermmm lets call him "GK" (bukan nama sebenar) is getting married in 3 weeks so ada new "BABY" la pulakkkk...haishhhhhh

Well thats all for now....wish me luck aitee.....xoxo

Come What May!!!!